adapting-slowly

You know those everyday moments when your vision blurs for a quick second,  but you blink to refocus it? Have you ever just let it continue to blur....until you can't see anything? And then you're in an alternative universe of troubling thoughts and sudden relaxation.  You feel fear and content. I think that's what death is like. You realize what is truly happening, but the pain is fuzzy.  A nice, though disturbing, state of mind. A gentle push into the ocean, falling silently into blue.  Sometimes I take in the blurred scene, hoping to die. Sometimes I see it in other people's eyes....They feel the urge to forget and end everything, too. But